Introvert and Play Parties.

I am a total big-time introvert. I am not really good at social situations and the office/family/neighbor Christmas/Halloween/New Year’s party scares the living shit out of me. Let’s just say I am not great at events like that. I usually shy away from them.

So, going to a play party with people I don’t know. Not happening in a million years.

But I guess never say never.

Anyway, a long while ago I was invited to a teaser to a play party by someone I knew. Basically, he had been inviting to the play parties he had been hosting for a while but I was too shy to go.

Shit, I was too shy to go up to a girl at a social setting (bar, dance, wherever) and he wanted to attend something where I had to have my clothes off. Not fucking happening on this Earth.

I do have some serious self-confidence issues about my body. That was another issue that I had. So, I had these were some the strikes I had.

So anyway, I agreed to go to one of his parties.

I went not expecting anything which was the way I approach things.

It was held in a hotel room and thankfully that there wasn’t many people there, so I could sit and around and survey the situation. It was a mixed crowd, men and women which was a good thing.

After a couple of minutes, a woman came over to me (we will call her SS) and sat down and said hi. We actually had a great conversation as we got to know each other a little bit before we played. It was a great way to break the ice. It relaxed me and I enjoyed it.

SS is a great person to talk to play with. We still have fun together and we have these great conversations still.

One thing SS taught me is that a play party is about people enjoying each other and it is not about sex. Yes, sex is invovled but it just wasn’t running a train on a woman but it more about people who were liked-minded and wanted to get together and have fun.

I met some other people at these parties and we enjoyed our time together. The cool deal was hanging out outside of the play party atmosphere. Sometimes, playing with someone becomes more fun when know the person and it is not just about sex.

We actually had bulit in breaks from playing. We would actually stop playing and pizza was delivered. We made sure that we were covered up somewhat when the pizza guy arrived. Then we would sit, talk and enjoy the company without playing even though we were naked.

Going on a tangent here (sorry): I remember one time SS and I went to something called “Bawdy Storytelling”. It is people going on stage and telling stories about sex in a funny way. The place was packed and we got there and were able to get good seats. The cool thing was that we were able to talk about the acts as they went one after another (people were allowed up 20 minutes), of course there was some fingering and teasing going on between us. Just having some fun. During the intermission we got up and were standing and I put my hands up her shirt and and played with her breasts and as she put drove her to orgasm in front of everyone (other folks were doing some stuff also). The funny thing is that I was so comfortable with her that I never noticed anyone around us. Even though there were maybe 150 people around us. Afterwards, she gave me the best blow job I ever had while I was driving to San Francisco to a place for a late night dinner.

Stuff like that. She still knows how to tease me to this day. She knows my fetshies, what to wear to mess with me and will tease me with it. Like she did not too long ago when we had breakfast together at a great restaurant.

Sorry for getting on the tagent of SS.

So for being an introvert I was actaully coming out of my shell and enjoying going to these parties. A lot of lack of self-confidence was going away and whatever body issues I had.

Then things changed as my friend decided not to host parties anymore and I tried to find an another play party group that was like the one had before but it seems like all of my old issues come up and the people are younger, more aggressive and not as communal and it is all about having as much sex and being the most aggressive person out there. The communal spirit is gone and I have stopped going to any parties.